contemplative...
3:17:00 AM
In these wee hours of the mornin,
i'm in contemplation...
Juz when i tot evrythin's pretty hunky dory,
it ISN'T...
Mite b my fault,
Mebi ,
I duno even noe anymore...
But watever it is,
It is NOT a nice feelin
The results ?
I'm sad ,
desolate...
&
it really takes a whole load to get me sad
cuz
i'm juz really a chirpy 'lalalala' kinda person
u noe...
I gez
it'll all fade away in time,
Everythin cums with a price...
Juz whether it's HEAVY or not !
I've been told,
Life's one BIG roller coaster ride
By golly !
I can't count the number of times i've had to say dat to meself
tis past year...
It's been unbelievable
The ups & downs...
Hope tingz will be better
But sadly,
i don't tink it will...
It's juz different now
Try as i mite,
Sumthin's not there
It juz isn't...
So ,
i'll juz hafta pick up the pieces & trudge on...
It's one hell of a learning curve for me
&
a great one @ dat too!
But one thing's for sure...
I'm no quitter !
Oh yes!
I WILL live as I please now
No more succumbing to craven moments...
I'm not gona stand for it no more,
no siree, i won't !
If u love me, u'll love me as i am...
Sumone said dat to me ,
I LOVE u Hemz...
Thks a million for ALWAYS being there
&
makin me feel i mean the world to u !
But
u noe...
how they also say ,
Sumone else's faults even as tiny as an ant
u'll see it..
But wen it comes to ur own,
Even if it's as BIG as an elephant
Sumtimes u dun even noe...
*sighs*
I'm definitely guilty of tis ,
tink we mite all be...
But
i'm tryin rid myself of tis foul habit...
Simply ,
it isn't nice to judge
cuz
u never exactly noe wat sorta tingz sumone else is goin thru...
Tis whole thingy has been
one juggernaught of a SUCKER punch to my gut !
I'm gutted ,
in disbelief
*sighs*
But insya'allah
tmro will be a BETTER day !
Aha,
The long-awaited reunion...
The actual celebration of the 1st year anniversary !
oOoooOooOo,
i shall strive to enjoy meself
despite the wat-nots
ahHhhhHhhh,
cuz u noe why ?
sings,
I am beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today
No matter what we do
We're the song inside the tune
Full of BEAUTIFUL mistakes
And everywhere we go
The sun will always SHINE
But tomorrow we might awake
On the other side
Thank you Ms Aguilera,
for the beautiful lyrics !
Tis song,
so apt...
Cheerios guys !
* rolls her eyes, how ironic *
P.S >>> Twas NICE meetin u gals
Isn't John Molina d cutest, ever ?
* drools *