have to...
12:30:00 AM
I absolutely have to blog about this. About this boy who sat beside me in the train.
Adorably cute this boy was. Saw when i boarded the train, this beefy young thing no more than 23, 24 in white tee & knee-length berms. He caught my eye and gave me a smile. Au contraire to his hulking self, his smile was surprisingly sweet.
Maybe fate was conspiring. Seeing no other seats, i sat my tushy down beside him, the only seat available.I wasn't about to stand ALL the way to town you know. So out came my earphones, his too. I was in a world of my own, listening to pop music & goss of Michelle Branch's pregnancy until unknowingly, the train reached Kallang. The onset of the Grand Canyon where reception fails ancient handphones like mine. All this while, the sweet boy sitting beside was restless, kept turning his head and meddling with his phone. He was typing a message. That much i could see.
Then...Then...i felt nudging. It was so surreal, i mean who on earth could possibly be nudging me? Makes a guess?
Yes, it was THAT sweet,young thing sitting beside me. HE was nudging me. Shocked. I wondered what could possibly possess this young man to nudge a complete stranger? I turned and then he showed his phone. Remember, he was busy typing a message? Apparently, this sweet young thing was indeed typing a message. A message for ME. Yes, me. Oh my god! Can you believe it?
He wrote : ' Hi, i think you're sweet. I saw you when you came into the train. Your smile is so sweet.But i'm shy and i just wanted you to know that.'...
He typed other stuff which i'm a wee bit shy to post in here BUT he made my day. That sweet, shy boy who apparently got over a little of his inhibitions to show me that message. Well, what happened next? Nothing. He was too shy and if he wanted my number, a line would have been drawn of course.He continued listening to his earphones, threw glances every once in a while when he thought i wasn't looking. As i got off the train, i turned to him, smiled and mouthed a thank you. He smiled back, that shy untouched smile and off i scurried to the exit.
Feeling a little bereft. If i had a younger sister, i would have been happy to take his number down & pass it on to her.Heh. But it's amazing what one person can do to change another person's day. I'll never forget this young boy and his sweet, innocent gesture. So unlike some coarse come-ons/pick up lines i've heard from ones much,much older than him. The boy that made this aging, 26++ year-ole gal feel like a million bucks.
A sweet young boy.
Remember, sometimes it takes just a small act. Just like the one i was LUCKY to have had tonight.
Only one.
One.
:)
i miss him..
3:54:00 AM
It is at this ungodly hour that i've realised how close we are to the wedding date.It's sOo close. End of February now. Another 2.25 more months.Lol. Is there such a thing as 2.25 months? I happen to chance upon a horoscope reading which said ' January will zoom by without you realising but come late Feb and early March, take your time to enjoy these moments. Treasure them as it will be these moments that you will remember for a long time to come.'
How true.
It is during this time that most of the wedding preps from the past year are bearing fruit. It's all coming in place, what with the invitations, arrival of the bedroom set, registering of the marriage & etc.
I'm happy. Why? It is cause most of it were done with our own 2 hands. Mine and his. Makes it worth the while as it brings us innately closer running around like a couple of MAD-hatter kids in the hot sun scrambling from one place to another. Sharing the joy, laughter, frustration and ultimately the love. That bond so undescribable. You have to go through it to understand. To feel it. Pardon the emo-momo fest, i AM missing him, my fiance terribly.
I am especially proud of our wedding dinner invites. I'm pleased to the bones cause thought of the concept all by myself after watching a very eclectic lifestyle show.Heh. Talk about pilfering an idea. But of course, a few changes here & there to define our own personal style. Our story. You'll know soon enough what i'm talking about. With the help of a dear friend, the cards are coming up beautifully. Just what i've always wanted. Something personal which no one else has. I mean it is OUR wedding card so it has to be JUST about us. The moolah that's coming out for it is most certainly well-spent. No qualms there. Nada.
Back to doing everything ourselves, we did have, the both of us, some help from our parents & family. For which, we are MOST grateful. Without them minus the mini-squabbles, i mean what would we do without a little fighting here & there right to spice things up, we might be lost on some of the traditional stuffs needed. I have to admit, i could do with a little less nagging from mummy but i know she has my best interests at heart as irritating as it may be at times. :)
All in all, everything's almost set.Alhamdullilah. Please pray for us that everything will go on as smoothly as possible. However, i do believe it isn't so much the actual wedding that i hold in high esteem but more of the lifelong journey to be partaken with my partner that's a wee bit more intriguing. To know him better as a person than what i already know of him so far. As they say, being married & staying together are two completely different things altogether as compared to the dating life. I'm under no illusions it'll all be a bed of roses BUT insya'allah we'll be able to work things out & give our future marriage all the attention it needs. This is quoted from an interview of Will Smith & his wifey Jada Pinkett-Smith,
" Our marriage works because we put a lot of work into it."
And you know what, they've been together for over 7 years now. A lifetime by Hollywood's standards.
Sweet. Saccharine sweet.
:)
random ramblings
10:25:00 PM
Well, it has been 5 days & counting...My baby's left me for that LONG! Yes, yes i do realise it's been ONLY 5 days & i'm such a wimp but i can't help it. But all's not doomed, heh. PLENTY of things to keep me occupied.
A couple days back, a Mr Naz, err Nazrul eh,
( not to be confused with Naz as in Nazree , my baby et fiance) called to ask if i was interested to join him & his soon-to-be wifey for a night out. To paint the town red or their last fling so to speak before their trip down the aisle. Of course, i was flabbergasted. This coming from a man who has sworn off clubbing but i guess everyone needs a break especially those
' poor beings running around planning for their weddings'. He suggested Attica Too to which i readily agreed. But of course, it's THE club du jour right now. A couple of smses to & fro subsequently and this appeared before me.
" Hey why not we try Thumper? ".
Do i see confused looks now ? Yes. I was bemused too. Scratched my head & asked myself WHAT ON EARTH IS THAT? 2nd question, WHERE THE HECK IS THAT PLACE? Could it be my dear Nazrul actually knows a club that i don't? Keke. Quite amused with this little episode actually. It serves as a reminder on a face slapping platter that i don't actually club all that much nowadays. Even if i do, it's the usual haunts. The places i went to in my heydays. Trying new places, seeing new faces in a clubbing atmosphere has lost its lustre for me. Even now,when i do go, i find myself enjoying these times a lot lesser. I'd rather hang out, sip a chilled coffee somewhere where a decent conversation can be carried out without having to scream my bloody throat out you know. Agree? Yeah, age's catching up baby.
Da tua la gue. :P
But back to Mr Nazrul... Well, i'll try to NEVER turn down an invite from him. Simply, he means the world to me cause of the things he's done for me over the years. And yes,it's because i rarely see that boy as well. Heh. I mean MAN. Plus he's getting married. That makes the two of us. So i'm sure that'll leave us with little or no time at all to meet. In a fantasy world, of course i'll get to meet him every other week like we used to but back to reality, i'm sure that's not a possibility. He's almost got himself a wifey now and that's where his priority is. I understand although initially it was quite difficult for me to adjust from being able to see him almost every other day to probably once a year. Yeah, such a drastic change eh? But i learnt & accepted as he was a great friend and his happiness was my utmost concern. Sorry i meant, he still IS a great friend and his happiness IS still my utmost concern.
Okay Naz, jangan tak jadik ah eh. I'll slam dunk, smack daddy you if tak jadik. Thumper ker, Attica ker, whatever la. Botttomline, mesti jadik la mat! Kekekeke.
I look forward to seeing my good friend again.
After a year of not seeing him.
* i'm a happy gal *
Btw, err Mr NAZREE @ my bonbon, you're coming along as well! Haven't gotten a chance to tell you yet. Heh. Pokai pokai.
:(
My dancing shoes are going to be in for some serious pummelling this weekend BUT what
a GREAT way to lose those menacing carbs stored somewhere around my arms i tell you!
:)
omigod!
8:05:00 PM
God, please pretty please help me. I can't stop myself. I really can't.I can't sleep, i can't eat just thinking of it. It's just toOoo goddamned BEAUTIFUL! Yes, that word absolutely deserves to be typed in bold as it determinably shows why it's being coveted so lustfully. Yes, yes, yes!!!
But, if i do get it, goshh,*shudders*
the phrase ' YOU'RE BUSTED' will almost surely pop in my head ever- so often. No doubts about that! However, the redeeming factor lies in the fact that this frivolous expenditure is completely justified. It HAS been awhile since i last want to buy something which thrills me THIS much. It will come from my ' will die if cannot buy' funds. You know, i even resorted to coin-tossing to decide.
Yes, that ancient tried & tested method. The coin told me to buy it. THe universe is conspiring.
Buy Farah buy buy buy!
Heh. I reckon if i can't eat/sleep thinking of IT, then i might as wellsave myself from these sleepless nights & march right on ahead to buy it.
Yes, yes you think?
Well,that was easy wasn't it? :)
It ALWAYS helps to write i think.Suddenly it's so much clearer.It puts everything into perspective.
By golly, what a grand way to justify a spree eh?
Lalalalalalalalalalallala, senangnya dalam hati.
Mau dapat benda baru,kekekekeke.
:P
sweet.
10:25:00 AM
Okay i'm back.Heh. The funk didn't last all that long eh? Simply couldn't resist. Have wayyy too much to write yet all my thoughts remain scrambled.
I chanced upon Wong Li Lin's picture in the Chinese magazine i Weekly. Looking mighty fine i'd have to say. *uh-huh*. She's managed to lose most of her baby weight, give and take a couple kilos. But that girl sure is stunning! What with her luminous, porcelain-like skin and yes, who can forget the ultimate accessory beside this successful woman? Why, her hunky, bootylicious husband of course. :)
The inspiration for this whole post started from looking at their picture. Both were caught in their private moment. Li Lin cupping Allan's face ever so tenderly and Allan, just smiling, probably thinking ,
' I'm one of the LUCKIEST fellas around to grab this gal.' It certainly looks like that to me when i saw them in person. This was probably a couple months after Li Lin had given birth to their child Sage Cadence. Spotted them walking sOo close with Allan's hand protectively at the small of Li Lin's back, as if to protect her from harm's way. It was so sweet. To see 2 mini-celebrities right here in our small backyard so in love, so cocooned in their own bliss.
As you all may know, i'm a HUGE fan of subtle intricacies of this thing we call 'body language'. A knowing look or a slight touch. You all know this. I'm sure you've all had it before with your partners, friends or etc. Just that person in your comfort zone whom you're most comfortable with that all defenses just come apart. Really, it's just sweet. Inspiring.
But i'm sad. :(
My baby's packing his bags and leaving me for 12 days.This is the first time we're going to be apart for THAT long. I'm such a wuss i know but the first time is always difficult right?
Oh, but i happen to be in the know of certain 'so i do not miss him like crazy' remedies. LOL.
To be announced at a later time when internet access isn't sOo readily available to him.
:P